Hi, I’m Gopal. I’m an undergraduate who’s interested in films and technology. My pronoun is he.
I go by the handle
kayg04 across the internet.
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A Bit of Tech
My love for Linux surfaced two years after my love for cinema when I decided to start reading the book, a friend on Facebook had recommended a few years before. The book marked my entrypoint to the *nix world and I started playing with my computer by
installing buying and installing ZorinOS. Little did I know what Free Software meant and yet, cut to two months of distro-hopping, my buddy Kris was helping me install the distribution I would grow to love but at the time, weed arch meant doing what the cool kids did.
I had a Surface Pro 4 which worked decently with Windows but a terrible device to install Linux on: the surface pen and the battery died after a year from purchase, proprietary WiFi drivers which required compiling a custom kernel, the display would start flickering heavily after some usage and Connected Stand-by instead of S3 Suspend which meant if I wanted to move the device, I had to hibernate it or shut it down.
Eventually, I got a Thinkpad X1 Carbon (6th Generation, which is what I currently use) with the naivete of using FreeBSD as a daily driver (thanks to Donovan Nagel’s YouTube Channel). That lasted for two days which I spent figuring out solutions to problems other than software compatibility; things like delayed sleep and resume which was a deal breaker for me.
So here I am, making this post on the glorious arch that made me.
A mm of film
It all started in 2015. Someone in some Facebook group posts about this crazy, pervy film called Love Exposure (2008), dir. Sion Sono. Next thing I know, it’s 5 in the morning and I am overwhelmed with this eerie feeling of liberation and happiness. Simultaneously, I was crying and I couldn’t stop feeling multiple things at once. What.. how. Who is this Sion Sono? More importantly (perhaps!), why hadn’t I felt the same way in the many years of existence? Thus, cinema became a way of expression, of absorbing and reflecting and thinking; somehow it was no longer a means to mere entertainment or escapism.
Cut to two years later, I discovered Hong Sang-soo and cinema suddenly became personal. A notable instance is one where I almost lost an incredibly close friend because of how deeply Like You Know It All (2009) (a pal keeps telling me it’s my favourite Hong but it’s so hard to pick one) had affected me. You can talk about cinema, analyze its social and political radius, argue about form and structure. All of that happens only when you are able to distance yourself from the film or wait until you’re able to. Since then Hong Sang-soo has become my favourite filmmaker but his films are yet to appear on any of my “favourite” lists.
There was an entire year where I couldn’t find a balance between work and film. I would work for 12 hrs a day, busy with one random self-imposed task to avoid another but I hadn’t the commitment to put on a 90-minute feature. I thought of quitting for good but occasionally, I would reiterate bits of Takaki’s monologue in the train; I would walk around, feeling every breeze that blows past as if I were a Malick character. Eventually…? I decided that this had to stop.
There is no exile from cinema.